By: Manolo | On: 12 Jan, 2003
Short summary:
This week was quiet. i worked the right amount of hours, and did had enough spare time. I started back to make some music. some are also koming back good, and the newer software i found, RENOISE, is really cool.
Other news? i heard silvia, she phoned me, but i was at work and was found not ready.. i was not able to ask her out properly. shit.. we havnt seen this 2003. anyway i also forgot to kall her to say bye bye. the hangover is almost gone. but still i m teenagering.
next BIG track i do i ll call AIVLX .. ( read reversed).
she will leave tomorrow.
i m sorry for that, but still this think help me to shake a bit my life whch was bekoming so fukking monotonous! I WAS dying inside like most of friend already did. the fire in my body is heating up. i think i ll leave italy again!
where? Holland? skandinavia? Uk? usa? australia? japan? who the fuck know.
dunno when or where but i know i will.
while writing this, i ve seen DUNE. it s fukking dope. ALL speech are perfect for being ripped and used in a track.
i love the movie.need to read back the book!!
ciao ! ! !
By: Manolo | On: 02 Jan, 2003
Yesterday after the film i went in the kitchen and made some drawing, read some magazines, made some “lateral logic ” quiz. i love them ! this helped with my hangover. I also wrote some words… maybe it s better kall them notes, senseless, driven by my irrationality, to ask S. out. I tend to be to too rational in this heart things, but if I dont know what i want how could i expect to comunicate that well? i kalled her but she was not very glad to go out.didnt say that directly, but meaning was Very clear. I didnt force her to. dunno but i had this feeling. about the broken magic. i dont kare about this weight on my stomach, I know it will pass, and so it s not a big issue, but i hate to think that our lives whcih come quite close are going to part very soon. She is leaving for london and once again i burned my occasion. fuck me, fuck my weakness, fuck my shyness. I got this 3 months long occasion to get her. i didnt pick it up. shit. I know i should not write when you got a feeling strom coming, scripta manent. and this diary is accessible to all ( even tru i think i just write it for my self…. coz no one visit this :-) I write anyway. this is my personal diary and no one read it. i fell free to write. And this is my most melanhconic page since i opened this diary. so if you want to see the happy manolo just come back 3-4 pages (when i was in dk for example)
By: Manolo | On: 02 Jan, 2003
Come back at 8:30 in da morning. set my alarm clock at 14:30 ( i needed to get back in track so 6 hours of sleeping are ok in my opinion..) but wake up at 16:30 . too late, i fear i ll be not able to go to sleep very early today. wonder what happened yesterday nite? strange days which left me a bitter-sweet taste in the mouth. i know that it would have been better if i was not in Varese , but i also know that if i were in switzerkand at the parties where i was booked to dj i’d regret that. so i take my decision, wrong or right, and i Go there. only time will tell…
Anyway… as i went to varese, met up woth giorgio. around 1:00 i left the house and i went to the teather/disco.( nedim was already sleeping at time). entrance was quite expensive but i entered anyway. i ve met Serena ( she is fukking fun!) and giulietz.
Obiovsly all other people from varese were there too. I also met Karin, a girl I met YEARS ago. she is fun and his boyfriend is too. He is Norwegian and i spoke some of my poor danish with him. i think he got amazed anyway.
This time i was not perfectly in synch with Varesini, coz many other people i didnt know were there as well. dunno i felt i were “too much” at the moment while writing this i m looking at “Pleasent ville” on Tv. it s a good movie. i ve been looking for it on video but never found it. I almsot forgot H A P P Y N E W Y E A R !