fuck at last i am back to milan!
not happy not at all i have left so many “opened” things in Kbh. The travel back was quite stressfull and the small scene i did in the
airport is fukking funny. well anyway, i m back: tomorrow i ve a job interview my former boss, francesco.
He is a very nice person and i feel happy that he kalled me back!!
11th sept 2002
First thing: a line of silence for the victims of WTC.
. . .
i still kant believe its happened. but at least i lived this year quite intensly, and i am not gonna say:” it s has passed already a year…” but probably… “it has passed only a year” i had quite many things happening this last year: graduation, holiday at seaside (!!), job, record labels, playing at Hardcore nation and Fuck parade, This remix project i gotta do, and of coz wonderful copenhagen. i love the city, i am still sad i gotta go.
Anyway.
I wake up early,(around 7:30) meet with Kasper and our lesson turned out to be a chat,
I also realised that at last i kan understand 30% + when two danish speaks… i m proud bout that! i will have to study
more when i m back in italy but i think i ve come to the turning point of the S-shaped learning curve… good good.
jeg vil gerne tale dansk naeste gange som jeg kome her.
we agreed for last lesson on sunday and then after that i got my almost daily drugs: check my mail…
yes i ve only one addcition: computers.
then i went to the mall next to library, listen to some cd with summer hits, and i found the name of dansk trax i like:
- det brune punktum - kom lad os g…
- Jonny Joergson - vent p… mig
- nik & Jay - nik & jay -
and of coz all that shitty english shit i ve heard in klubs, speaking of music: the second cd of Coldpaly got good reviews all over and i be heard they are n 3 in Usa, wish you GOOD luck guys.
I ve also found this Chillout moods doublie. gotta download some mp3 (oppps:-) and then i went to Kunst Museum, quite nice, i must go to Luisiana as well i think i ll go on friday. The museum had nothing really impressive but a couple of rooms with cool
geometrikal pictures. didn t understand tham well. of coz i took 40 pix with the digital kamere. and that is aroun 220 pix in a couple of weeks :-) it will be an headache to make a web page for that.
Came back to Gammeltolfgade, move to next room (and this is like the fifth moving in a month)
then i went to resturant (il mercante in Bredgade, classy resturant with good food) to tell Lone that i ve to quit, of coz she was not happy, so i decided to work also on saturday for half shorter hours. i didnt fell like dropping the place like this.
then i went to see how wa the Student hus, fuckking packed, something like 20 mt of line.
yesterday nite was incredibely hot: 20 degrees at 22:09 in Cph ! as warm as milan.
come back to home to relax a while but got a kall from Lidia, i meet her, she is really a fun girl, really crazy, coming from Sudtirol but a traveller by nature has been living in karaibs, swiss, italy germany denmark, and who knows where else. we went to a Latinos party, meet nice chilenos and argentinos. then we left i bring her home. She was quite down about her staying in Cph. i was quite down about my leaving from Cph. i think we met and passed a nice nite..
at 4:30 i was home, tired, but happy, that is a day really LIVED.
Tomorrow RUben will kome here, that willl be nice to go out, it will look less like the last week end. i m sure KBh will be in my future plans:
sterling offer 1000DKK travel from milan to Kobenhavn…
that is 130 euro!!! www.sterlingtickets.com i think….
Vi ses
My parents want me back to milan, i ve a job interview in milan as well, i took the decision to kome back. well i did what i HAD to and not what i felt, fuck i already regret the decision, i am quite sad. but … well no but.
i m not able to follow my will but still i am slave of other plp’s will.
I think i Own more than one to my parents, so back to milan.
i m sad.
And angry also: actually all the persons i know that took a career path that i d never follow or i repute “blind” (work a lot now coz in 20 years you ll be somebody, so you ll have many duties and work more…and so on… you know the vicious circle, but no one understand the ultimate target of that self destruction) adviced me to change life back.
The more they are like that the more they told me that coming back to italy is the best way, one also told me you MUST do that: EVERY BODY DOES THIS WAY: SO THIS IS THE BEST WAY…
Whatta fuck! doing what evrybody does is the “easyiest” way.. not the BEST, not the shortest, not the happiest. only easiest, but fuck i hate that! so if you think that easy=best… we are not in synch, sorry…. i think that the only way to maximixe ur life you gotta live it as much as you kan, and thecontinous change is the only way to “live”. i think that being pedantik sux and drift life away. Doing some thing for years make you dying inside , without knowing.
yes it gives you that feeling of “safeness” doing same things over and over, but that is like giving up your life for a quite, sheep-like life. I m probably still a children, who still think to be able to make a difference, swiming against the flow, but hey what is the problem about that? I dont do drugs, dont smoke, dont drink, dont trick the next person, i work for a better enviroment, i m worried about world is going, dont give a fuck about religion: i do the above things coz i think this is my efferd to make this earth we step a better to live in, not coz “god” tell me that… an other thing i hate is hardcore religion fanatics… but i m sure i ll have time to spit my venom an other time about this subject. back to Time/ live to work / work to live shit…
Do you remember that book? MOMO? where the black suited men stolen time to all people? well i barely remember it (read it at second level skool) but it impressed me then, and it come out to my memory now. think i need to find it and read back.
now i open my pandora-brain.. more deep buried memories come out from that…
i remember Nietzche now… heheheh you didnt expect that :-) i guess that also him told something about the living that now i can half agree. He was An enthusiast of the war coz he thinks that a strong emotion like that is able to shake the intimate world of a person. i half agree coz i hate war, and coz i think that is not the strengt of an impulse that is able to change person permanentely. i m much more for a continuos little change than an una-tantum stroke …
The water-flow-that-kan-cut-the-muntain hypotesis is better than the elettroshock way.
ok as usual i spoke too much, and too bad, and i m lazy to read it back for errors cheking.
Hope someone understand my deliriums….(deliria??)
manolo